Ok, so it's been a quiet couple of days for us. Today our trio battled the scorching, Toronto heat to head to Vaughn Mills. Our mission was to attempt to get some new summer clothes for me, as I appear to have none! We also wanted to see if I could pick up a dress for a wedding that we are attending tomorrow.... which brings me to the subject of today's blog...
Tomorrow we're going to be attending a wedding sans Azaria (sans is french for "without" for those of you whom don't speak it). In the 16+ weeks that she has been on the face of the earth, I have never left her for more than a half hour (an hour tops!). And if I have, I've always been close by. Nonetheless, tomorrow she'll be staying by her grandparent's house in North York, while her daddy and I attend this wedding somewhere else in the city. Now, make no mistake, trust is not the issue. I have no problem with and have the utmost faith in knowing that her grandparents will nurture her like she was their very own daughter... what it comes down to is this... I feel sooooo mean for leaving her, period!! I guess at some point, we'll have to part (like when I go back to work), but I feel like I'm abandoning her!! There is an emptiness in me that feels like the first day that you went to school and had to leave your parents side. I know everything will be alright, but I can't lie, I'm nervous about leaving the one human being that I have been virtually attached to at the hip for 4 months!! You mothers know what I'm talking about. I'm sure you can relate. I'm going to miss her. Will she miss me, too? Will she even know that I'm gone? Stay tuned...
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